I knew it was nothing. That's what I kept telling myself as I see you eight feet away from me smiling to the girl seated across the aisle from you. We barely even talked, much less know each other this past six months we've been acquainted. Just a 'hi' and 'hello', or some random joke here and there.
Whatever nothing was, it crept up on me as you said something funny along the stairwell on our way to class. Whatever nothing was, it came like a hurricane when we first spoke to each other for more than the polite greeting.
We're in one big room four hours a day. five days a week, yet we act like shadows passing by in the horizon - standing next to each other, yet not really touching. Is this how nothing feels? How my eyes seem to be glued to you whenever I see you. Or is it the way my mind starts looking for you each time I enter a room? Maybe it's when I see you speak to her about something or the other while I'm on my seat thinking of what to have for lunch and wondering why I felt my chest ache, just a little.
You're there. She's there. I'm here. So I want to know, do you feel nothing too?
J<3
