Jeepney

I was driving to school this morning, minding my own business and snickering quietly because I noticed my little sister cutely fast asleep in the passenger's seat. Ninety-nine point nine percent of my concentration was on the road, while point one percent was wondering around what I will be doing in school for the six-and-a-half hours I will be spending in the library.

I was looking forward to grab a snooze for a few minutes (or maybe a few hours) in the social hall or in the library when five minutes away from my home away from home, I noticed a familiar face in the jeepney right in front of me. Suddenly, I was fighting hard to keep my concentration on driving and not on the face of a friend I used to spend most of my days with for almost a whole school year. I wanted to let my car stay still, but the jeep was taking so long to move.

So I did the logical thing a driver would do: I went past the jeep. It was still idling at the corner to let a passenger down, but I kept looking through my rear view mirror, wishing that the jeep would drive by me so I could get a glimpse of that face again.

My heart was beating really fast, and hundreds of questions were running through my head. "Did he see me?" "What's happening?" "Why is my heartbeat like this?" "What does it mean?" "If he did see me, which I doubt, would he feel this way too?" I wanted with all my might to just stop the car, wait for the jeep drive by me, and follow it. But again, I did the logical thing: continue driving.

I took a left in the next corner and noticed that the jeep stopped once more to let another passenger down - him. The jeep then drove by me while I was parking my car, and I couldn't help but look at the spot where he was moments ago, wishing he was still there.

I haven't seen him for nineteen months, and I regret that I let every chance of seeing him pass. I thought I forgot about him, but why is it that after a three-second glimpse of his face, everything's back to how they were nineteen months ago? It just makes things complicated once again.